Favor

This quote was shared on a group that I belong to on Facebook: 

"What would happen if you decided to let God break you to the point that He would rebuild you into something so outstanding, so beautiful, so incredible, that you wouldn't even recognize what He remade you to be, because He is that good of a God... Would you say yes? I'm trying to say yes. God help me say yes. "

This quote stirred something inside me. I have often seen people refer to God's favor, and how blessed they are to have it. They show their beautiful lives, with everything going right, and revel at how God favors them. It's almost as though they have the bright sun shinning on them at all times. As I sit in what feels like a storm, getting drenched and cold, it has often left me wondering why I do not seem to have this "favor" that these people describe. This quote gave me some insight. Could it be that God is working on me, and rebuilding me? Could being broken, often feeling shattered into pieces, also mean that I have the opportunity to be put back together, stronger and better? 

Sometimes when you are sitting in the cold and the rain, feeling chilled to the bone, it is easy to resent those sitting in the sun. It is also easy to feel forgotten by God, or tossed aside. I have had fleeting moments where I felt like the forgotten. My life is hard and there is no relief in sight. It is a sad reality. I grieve the loss of our "old life" daily. I often feel robbed of the life we were suppose to have. Sometimes it is unbearable.

In those times, I work really hard to lean into gratitude. I remind myself of all the times I have been strong when I really should have been broken. I think of all the people who have appeared in my life at the exact moment that I have needed someone or something. I look around at the life we have built, against all odds, and I am awestruck. Everything I have been through, all of the storms, have molded and shaped into a person that I am extremely proud to be.

So as it turns out, God has not forgotten me or tossed me to the side. My version of favor isn't sunshine and everything going right. My version of favor, is God taking the thing that was designed to break me and using it for my greater good. So, to answer the quote above, I say YES!